wow, its definitely been a while on here....my my my

so much has went down the last few months of my life

never did I plan or want things to unfold the way they did, but to this day I am hurt, mad, and find myself still becoming teary eyed when I think about it- I still have a good heart and will always have a good hurt, no matter how much others may say otherwise or want to bash me...At least I can say that many have been an adult and listened to both sides of the story and still stayed a neutral party, others just continue to have a one track mind, which is sad to say, but whateva, when serious things happen in life, you learn to know who your TRUE FRIENDS are!!!!

because I have been through so many ups and downs in my life, I have grown to realize that it is not worth the energy to talk about someone negatively, yea I may not agree with everything you say and do but people will be people and why waste the energy. If I have only negative things to think or say about you, I just prefer to keep the thoughts to myself and keep your name out of my vocabulary, maybe some should take this hint

I hate that I have lost my 2nd best friend in life and will probably keep a wall up and not try not to get too close to anyone or at least not be able to call anyone else in my life a best friend, I may call you my homeboy or homegirl or best bud but I have not been able to come to terms with best friend after the whole Kierra situation, which still do not know what happended to this day and it has been like 4 1/2 years and then the whole situation with D....I know time will only tell and we all need time to heal

I guess I will continue to try to be happy and better myself as a person so that one day hopefully soon I can have the finer things in life, not to be flithy rich, but to have enough money to be able to live comfortably, take a trip or 2 a year, buy new clothes when I want to, oh yea and have a new ride....

Life is full of trials and tribulations and I know that I have not always made the right decisions, only b/c I am human, but I take the decisions and try to make things better whenever and however I can.

I have had a lot on my mind even with a lot of stuff going on in my family and it hurts more with this b/c there is really nothing that I can do, but continue to live my life and wish the best for everyone else, but it does bother me that I can't go home like I want to.  It is September and I have not been back to NY/NJ since Christmas of last year. I have missed several family functions including bday parties, cookouts, and then my grandfather has been very sick on and off, but he is strong and I know he will fight....

Looking to make some better choices and try new things for the end of 2009 and beginning of 2010...wish me luck

C

well today is me and D's 5-year anniversary

Happy Anniversary Baby!!!!!

Love ya Always

C

so I was in the A last weekend...had a great time with Jayme..also saw my fellow classmates...and we watched the superbowl, talked, talked, and talked, and play Nintendo Wii, great fun!!!!

Jayme took me around the A, went to buckhead, went shopping at the underground, went to Midtown, went to Gladys Nights Chicken and Waffles *yum yum*...great fun

had a long week at work...Sprint is on some bullshit, ok my job is cool and all...i listen to my Ipod all day while taking 2 chats to help some Sprint customers issues...now everything was cool on last tuesday, when they gave us a warning that we would begin to take 3 chats when the que is high to keep from customers from waiting a long period of time, ok cool...

NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

these bitches lied, lied, lied.....

first they tell us this, then they tell us, well if you volunteer to pulll a 3rd chat you would get a raise after a while....BULLSHIT AGAIN!!!!

these bastards are making all employees mandatory take 3 chats, and everybody is stressing out and is mad as hell at work....

it is not fair, you can't tell your employees one thing and do another, i think they are secretly trying to make people quit or easily get fired for dumb shit...

my job was ok before this went down, now it is miserable and i have a migrane everything because of all the stress and things they want us to do, we gotta do more work now and are not getting paid anymore money....wtf

they are not hiring anymore, but many people have gotten fired since the new year and overtime is no longer offered, so since Sprint has laid off 8,000 people in the last month, i think they want people to quit so that they do not have to pay them....

sigh

that is just wrong

anyways: yesterday went to the mall and walked around for like 3 hours, was definitely tired after that...then me and my homeboy from Atlanta went to Cheddars for dinner, first time there, good stuff

oh yea, my friend Jimmie from the A came to concord, nc with his boys to visit and I had to go rescue him from his friends b/c u know how black folks are, they say lets do this, lets do that, but nobody tries to make a move..

so he ended up staying at my house and sleeping on the couch on friday nite, then we went to the mall on sat. and then went out to eat....i had a great time!!!!

it is always fun when people come from out of town to swing by and see you....

today: i am just chillen, watching movies.

Watched: fools gold last nite, watching step brothers right now, and i have to watch the rest of pineapple express....

the weather is great....it was 70 degrees yesterday and today....too bad i have horrible allergies, so i really hate being outside

but i did finally get my car washed yesterday, it now has its color green back....

i need to go get a few groceries from walmart as much i hate going there...

i guess next weekend i will begin my apartment search again...since my lease ends in june and i have to move b/c i cannnot afford this high rent anymore...its really taking more money that i can make in a month to stay here...i hate to move b/c i love my apartment, it is quiet, spacious, but too expensive....especially the fact that i get no OT anymore, i cannot do it, i hope i can at least make it through June to stay here....

welll time to do more chillen

holla